2020 Reading

My goal is to follow this as my reading guide for the year. JanuaryThe Testaments, Margaret AtwoodThrough the Woods, Emily CarrollRed at the Bone, Jacqueline WoodsonTopdog/Underdog, Suzan-Lori Parks AprilNormal Sucks, Jonathan MooneyTwo Can Keep A Secret, Karen McManus MayParable of the Sower, Octavia ButlerDisplacement, Kiku HughesParable of the Talents, Octavia ButlerI Love You So Mochi, …

100 miles away from home

I need you to take this cash, your ID's, and your brother and go. We don't have time for questions. Just know that we love you. I love you so much. I didn't tell you that enough. But it's true. Please don't start crying now. We don't have time for that. Please. Remember everything that …

I will

One day, when you ask how I can be so cold, because you will ask, I will remind you that I told you long ago, over email, or text, or maybe when we'd had a bit too much to drink that this is how I am. Who I am. But you didn't believe me. Didn't …

When your life is a pro/con list

As a daughter I've kept the descendent and lost the duty. I've kept the awe and lost the asking. I've kept the understanding and lost the underling. I've lost the grip, but kept the gift. Kept the hugs and rid myself of the hurt. Kept the team and forgave the tears. Given up the things …

A poem for nighttime

I hear the music as I try to sleep Feel the beat pulsate and move me Bring me back to a place of wakefulness Let the rhythm guide me Pushing up from my soul Let the lizard brain take over Let the body do what it does What it was made to do What I …

Rot

There's an undercurrent of rot in my life. Spores of mold infiltrating and the scent of mildew grows and grows. I can hear it sprout, feel it grow, smell it coming for me. I grasp at the walls and they crumble in my hands. The moisture leaving me damp and cold. I step on the …

New Year, New Reading Goals

Last year I had a plan to read 52 books and I totally did it and it feels good to accomplish a goal, no matter how small. So I'm going to keep the goal of 52, but make a minor adjustment and keep it tied to the themes below. And I wish I was original …

random notes during a random meeting

Before the rain... sounds like a 90's r&b song & I. am. here. for. it. Emphatically. I cannot think of any of the songs right now, but I feel like the boy bands -man bands- kinda all had a similar vibe. I wish 112 was still 112 and not 1/2 of 112 w/ some random …